My older son texted me today that Lewistown community members were protesting on behalf of the Black Lives Matter movement.
It’s nice to hear that people are showing care… now.
Where was this care when I, alone, protested Blackface in elementary school wax museums (2012). When I, alone, protested the use of race colors in 4th-grade behavior systems (~2010). When I, alone, protested books with the word “nigger” being permitted during Lewistown Schools’ school-sanctioned events (“Family Fun Reading Night”, ~2008).
Eleven years I lived in Lewistown. Eleven years I fought alone. Only I stepped outside of a comfort zone. Only my voice made any sound. I no longer live in Lewistown; in that respect, Lewistown’s innate, systemic racism won whilst the people of Lewistown lost.
So yes, it’s bittersweet to hear Lewistown’s community is, finally, protesting against racism. However, talk is cheap, and systemic racism is a marathon.
It’ll be interesting to see if Lewistown and Central Montana can go the distance. I hope, for your own sake, you can.
Don’t know about yours, but my Angels are DJs. Yes, They do the repeating numbers thing, and the often, yet when I brush the numbers aside (because Reasons), that’s when They break out Their album collection. (They know it’s much more difficult to ignore an ear worm.) Between Them and the Energy in the air, I opened to Listen. The song on loop today? “Listen to Your Heart” – Roxette. 🎶
Now, I haven’t paid attention to this songs lyrics… Not even when I would sing along when it first came out. But when my Sacred DJs spin, I look them up:
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye
I’ve learned a lot about Forgiveness in the last year; learned a lot about what’s truly important, why I experienced certain things, and how I intend to work with the results of these lessons.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems,
The feeling of belonging to your dreams
Sometimes it’s difficult to reach out to someone, especially to apologize, especially when they aren’t communicating with you due to road blocks you set up. It’s also difficult to do when personalities are Stubborn, and likely with innate relationship/communication/ self-love issues. It isn’t easy to admit you were wrong, you fucked up on a general basis; to own it after making basically a dramatic, public declaration of falsehoods? How much internal debate must occur before you can risk that reach-out?
Looks like a lot of Truth stepped into some emotions, lot of healing and thinking… Lot of “should I/shouldn’t I” taking place… Yet some small message has the potential to occur. Some form of reaching out to communicate, to assist in self-healing, or resolution of a situation causing emotional disturbance. It is a small one (Page of Cups 🍷), yet sometimes the best things come in small packages. Sometimes, all you need is the door opened a crack. Give a little, to get a lot.
A person caused great harm due to a third-party situation or influence, which triggered a disruption in the Cycle, the Plan, or Contract. This, in turn, helped bring about a move for the other party that was something they’d been working towards for a long while (perhaps 3 years), leading to better opportunities for that person. The actions of the King of Swords ⚔ helped that person to learn more about themselves, see into the situation, and accept the Lesson(s). On some level, this is also reflected back into that King of Swords ⚔, and he, too, has lesson(s) to learn… All which will help begin a fresh start, one based in Love, with a greater sense of Self Love.
This last reading shows, ultimately, that yes, communication is possible and in your ultimate best interest, if you walk away from what you invested in, emotionally, in a negative way. Doors will open – choices – leading to ways you can profit more than just financially, but emotionally and spiritually as well. Your Soul will heal and grow. But you have to stop thinking about it, and take that first step – do it. Reach out. You have the tools and the means. #JustDoIt
That’s all I have to say about that.
And there are voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can’t find the words
The sense of magic, the beauty that’s been
When love was wilder than the wind
Listen to your heart when he’s calling for you
Listen to your heart there’s nothing else you can do
I don’t know where you’re going and I don’t know why,
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye
It’s Cancer season, July 2019, and it has me all up in my watery, oceanic Feels.
Thinking about things… The new opportunities potential, physical, spiritual, and otherwise, that I can feel shift with the wind; Messages breezing in from On High.
I welcome and embrace new beginnings, new Connections, living the hell out of my Best 9 of Pentacles ⭐ Energy Life.
I hope, TF, that you do pop onto my site on occasion, because I want you to know: I forgive you. I never stopped wishing you Joy, Happiness, and Love, even though you may have told yourself otherwise. We all have our lessons to learn, and mutual communication is Key.?️
There’s much you missed or misinterpreted because of your fears. Our Silence, Separation, is still because of those fears.
And that’s okay. I hope you’re okay; I know I am more than okay. ? I’ve learned so much over the last couple years, and the knowledge makes me stronger, empowered. I hope you took time to do the same.
Because no matter what choices we make in this life, no matter whom we Connect with, You will always Matter. ♾