Took a needed break from my blog as I dealt with offline life. Lot of painful Tower card moments -☇- but sometimes that’s how it rolls in order for one to get forward momentum, especially when so many blocks are stacked or chained to you, entrapment in what no longer serves you in the Good Way.
Betrayals and Soul-wounding, – breaking, from those who once vowed, “I would never.”
But it’s okay. Catalysts are often painful. And I made it through; moved myself and my kids from an intensely negative environment into a so much better one for us.
New town (city), new home, new job, new Life. Even a new (to me) car, because apparently my Sacred Peeps are thoroughly hardcore about my fresh start ?:
Also, a new outlook, as I let go of the pain and grip of the last 5-6 years, and live in my Present with an eye on my Future, returning to My Self.
Like the Phoenix, I Rise. You can’t keep a Good Woman down. ✨
But… At an immeasurable cost on the physical plane – the “3D” to those in the Know: my Twin Flame (Re)union. The Karmic won. My Truth, my warnings, fell on deaf ears, blinded eyes, and to my infinite shock, my TF chose the fool’s gold in the hand, instead of taking a risk on a 24k future.
And it’s taken a while for me to recover from that blow; I’m still healing, over a year later. Yet I still struggled, because I made promises, vows. How to fulfill them with such a jagged, harsh, negative fracture between us? How could I possibly tell him he is forgiven?
The 5D. I’ve been working on it. Working to fulfill my end of the sacred bargain, because at the end of the day, it’s my Soul I see when I look in the mirror. I don’t renege.
Then I stumbled upon this video on YouTube:
So, I’m okay. I’m better than okay, and improving – gaining Strength – by the second. I have Me, my Kids, my Dog. I have Everything. Life is Good and I am Blessed. Thank You. ?? ??
I ask every one of my white friends and Fam to read this book. I ask any and all white strangers, both in and outside the U.S. to read this book. I ask that all junior high schools and high schools in the U.S. add it to their regular curriculum. I ask that it be adapted for elementary students, and a children’s book for Pre-K.
The truth is racism is bone-deep and often innate. Many don’t realize it’s there, believing if someone isn’t wearing a white pointy hood or perverted swastika, or saying things like “nigger,” “wetback” or “kike,” they aren’t racist. But here’s the problem: Many don’t object to it either.
This is called passive-racism.
The passive-racist doesn’t outwardly support racism. They’ll likely oppose racism if the topic comes up. The passive-racist may even date, marry and have children with people of color.
But when that relative who is “just that way” rolls racist sentiments at the Easter table, friends and family exchange knowing looks but never object. “Please don’t,” the passive-racist insists, “it’s just how they are. Don’t rock the boat. You’ll upset the family.”
The passive-racist excuses blackface at a school wax museum because “it’s just kids playing dress up. What’s the harm?”
Instead of speaking themselves, the passive-racist might tell someone they know will acknowledge the racism in the hopes that person will take action. Then the passive-racists congratulate themselves for “doing something” and call themselves an ally. But if asked why they don’t take direct action themselves, the passive-racist offers excuses like, “I’m a pacifist” or “I’m a white male, I don’t know how I could be of any help,” when it’s precisely that white factor that gets hailed as empathy while people of color get the “angry (black) person” label.
Meanwhile, negative billboards opinionizing on a black president bookend their town even after that president vacates office, because it’s paid for and the Tea Party “wasn’t about race.”
Days of future past
With that background, it was no surprise that a racist-supremacist misogynist won Montana’s vote to be president of our United States.
Blatant racists aren’t only who support the current president. Passive-racists support Trump, too. Yet for them, there’s often a list of shallow rationales attempting to disguise their racism like, “I’m sick of the same old politician families, let’s try something new,” or the “businessman entrepreneur” angle or “I like how he tells it like it is.”
White Trump supporters are quick to deny his blatant white supremacy because that would make them supremacists by association, and they’re not ready to look at their own thoughts and actions. It’s called transference.
Racists who haven’t accepted their racism don’t like being called racists. They get defensive and angry. They try to flip the topic (Kaepernick and “Take a Knee” is a perfect example). They dismiss opinions; call people “snowflakes,” “too sensitive,” or “victims of too much politically correct culture.” Anything to avoid looking at their own ingrained race beliefs and conduct.
Self-monitoring racism while simultaneously excluding the feedback of people of color makes as much sense as males deciding health care for women.
An example of what’s happening in our community is the outcome when a black woman ESPN anchor discussed supremacy versus when a white woman pageant contestant did the same. The ESPN woman, Jemele Hill, was severely criticized. Even the White House reportedly said she should be fired. The pageant contestant, Margana Wood, aka Miss Texas, was hailed a hero. Now ask yourself why.
People must own their racism. Until that happens, until people are able to admit their racism to themselves and stop denying what is so obviously present in our community, it cannot be addressed.
A strong step toward healing is to watch Jane Elliott’s work (http://janeelliott.com, can also be found on YouTube). Everyone; schools, institutions and even places of employment will benefit from Elliott’s education so they can realize how racism occurs in their everyday lives and how to open communication pathways towards acceptance and healing.
It won’t be easy. America as a whole has centuries of conditioned bad behavior to work through and resolve. Yet America is beautiful, diverse, strong and good-hearted, just like her people. Together, united, she can.
Christina Clinton is a mother and writer whose work can be found at www.stormcloud0.com. Originally from New York City, she relocated to Big Sky Country 21 years ago and lives in Central Montana.