For as far back as I can remember, I’ve always been a cloud reader. As a child, I’d spend hours gazing up into the sky, identifying the images formed by clouds. I did this even unconsciously as I floated in water, climbed my favorite tree, lay on the grass and basked in sunshine. Even last night; I noticed a cloud shaped in a whale’s tail when a whale lifts its tail out of the water (complete with water) and I can’t understand why the person I pointed it out to didn’t see it. It was so patently obvious to me that the cloud formed a whale’s tail and he absolutely could not see it that it forced me to realize that my way of thinking (Mercury in Pisces) was categorically alien to his (Mercury in Sagittarius) and always had been and always would be. It also emphasized how very alone I feel on this planet right now.
Songwriter and recording artist, Sia, has a song called “Elastic Heart” (listed in my Twin Flames playlist) that I love because (the piano/acoustic version) is so powerful and I resemble that reflection. Now I know my heart stretches in all directions, and is remarkably irrepressible. But lately, I find myself wondering… Yes, the heart is elastic, but how resilient is the Soul?
I feel melancholy in this space in time because I’m working on a challenging project; editing and formatting a love story that wasn’t, and there are over a thousand pages of such purely expressed but not shared feeling that wading through it is daunting and leaves my soul so sad because I know this hurt. So I turned to the sky – as I often do – for renewed strength and guidance, and was struck with a cloud memory: Last year, during an exceptionally painful and personal time, I looked up and saw three letters. And as I gaped in disbelief at those three letters, hope infused my soul… and that joy of Please, yes, seeded… took root. And I had to take a picture because I could barely believe it myself. Unfortunately, it took me too long to realize I could take a picture (yay, cell phone) that by the time my stunned self snapped it, Nature’s breeze already disrupted the formation (as you can see.) But I know it was there; I still can make out the initials even drifted as they are in the photo.
Clouds have always steered me in the Right Direction of Hope and My Destined Life’s Path. Back in 1996, just a week before I met my former husband and father of my children, I was in Glacier, got a “Nudge” and looked up to see clouds formed in a “15”. Then the five breezed off to show the “One” by itself before it too, shifted into wisps of white mist. “15” in Numerology equals “6”, which is my Destiny number. “15” also happens to be the day of his birth, and the five drifted off to show me that I would meet him in “1” week (which I did.)
Yet this time… For the first time, I feel uncertainty because it feels like so much time passed since I saw that monogram in the sky, and… nothing. Nothingman. I know the “future’s above”… but it seems too much as though “he’s slow and sinking”.
I don’t know. I just don’t know this time. My Soul feels thin and fragile; I understand too well what the writer of those 1,000+ pages went through, is going through.
Then again, I was shown a whale tail.
The whale is symbolic of that which cannot be easily vanquished — just as a person’s inner truth, voice, and creativity cannot be easily silenced or subdued.
It seems my Sacred Peeps answered me They faithfully do, just took me a bit longer to understand Their message to me: The whale is commonly associated with emotion, inner truth, and creativity. Here are additional meanings:
Physical and emotional healing
Keeper of history
Importance of family and community
You won’t see me swallowed whole; I have an elastic Soul. 💖