Elastic Soul?

For as far back as I can remember, I’ve always been a cloud reader. As a child, I’d spend hours gazing up into the sky, identifying the images formed by clouds. I did this even unconsciously as I floated in water, climbed my favorite tree, lay on the grass and basked in sunshine.

whale tail
Whale tail
Even last night; I noticed a cloud shaped in a whale’s tail when a whale lifts its tail out of the water (complete with water) and I can’t understand why the person I pointed it out to didn’t see it. It was so patently obvious to me that the cloud formed a whale’s tail and he absolutely could not see it that it forced me to realize that my way of thinking (Mercury in Pisces) was categorically alien to his (Mercury in Sagittarius) and always had been and always would be. It also emphasized how very alone I feel on this planet right now.

Songwriter and recording artist, Sia, has a song called “Elastic Heart” (listed in my Twin Flames playlist) that I love because (the piano/acoustic version) is so powerful and I resemble that reflection.

Now I know my heart stretches in all directions, and is remarkably irrepressible. But lately, I find myself wondering… Yes, the heart is elastic, but how resilient is the Soul?

I feel melancholy in this space in time because I’m working on a challenging project; editing and formatting a love story that wasn’t, and there are over a thousand pages of such purely expressed but not shared feeling that wading through it is daunting and leaves my soul so sad because I know this hurt. So I turned to the sky – as I often do – for renewed strength and guidance, and was struck with a cloud memory: Last year, during an exceptionally painful and personal time, I looked up and saw three letters.

Marker in the Sky - TF
“Marker in the Sky” (2015)
And as I gaped in disbelief at those three letters, hope infused my soul… and that joy of Please, yes, seeded… took root. And I had to take a picture because I could barely believe it myself. Unfortunately, it took me too long to realize I could take a picture (yay, cell phone) that by the time my stunned self snapped it, Nature’s breeze already disrupted the formation (as you can see.) But I know it was there; I still can make out the initials even drifted as they are in the photo.

Clouds have always steered me in the Right Direction of Hope and My Destined Life’s Path. Back in 1996, just a week before I met my former husband and father of my children, I was in Glacier, got a “Nudge” and looked up to see clouds formed in a “15”. Then the five breezed off to show the “One” by itself before it too, shifted into wisps of white mist. “15” in Numerology equals “6”, which is my Destiny number. “15” also happens to be the day of his birth, and the five drifted off to show me that I would meet him in “1” week (which I did.)

Yet this time… For the first time, I feel uncertainty because it feels like so much time passed since I saw that monogram in the sky, and… nothing. Nothingman. I know the “future’s above”… but it seems too much as though “he’s slow and sinking”.

I don’t know. I just don’t know this time. My Soul feels thin and fragile; I understand too well what the writer of those 1,000+ pages went through, is going through.

Then again, I was shown a whale tail.

The whale is symbolic of that which cannot be easily vanquished — just as a person’s inner truth, voice, and creativity cannot be easily silenced or subdued.

humpback whale tail
Humpback Whale tail
It seems my Sacred Peeps answered me They faithfully do, just took me a bit longer to understand Their message to me: The whale is commonly associated with emotion, inner truth, and creativity. Here are additional meanings:
Wisdom holder
Physical and emotional healing
Keeper of history
Importance of family and community
Emotional rebirth
Peaceful strength

You won’t see me swallowed whole; I have an elastic Soul. ?

Numbers & Grizzlies, O My!

Oh, for heaven’s sake.

After bringing it up the other day, this morning’s errand-run brought forth nothing but repeating numbers and MT Griz license plates! ? (And this style in particular.)

Montana Grizzlies license plate
Montana Grizzlies license plate – Go Griz!
I get it — sorta/kinda — yet I’m unsure just what I’m supposed to do with this information (and what actually is contained within the message, cause obviously there is a message, and just as clear, more than one.) Does it mean I’ll be moving my family to Missoula? Does it mean I’ll be meeting someone from Missoula? Or someone who is a University of Montana graduate? All of the above?

00, 11, 22, 33, 55… And of course, my personal favorite, 1026. Dafuq?

Repeating Numbers
11… 22… 33…
Understood: It’s a Message. Also understood: It’s a Message that needs definition. So I start at my “go-to” repeating numbers definition site: Angel Numbers for a baseline concept. (And, incidentally, it’s no accident that I added a zero to my website domain name.) It’s a well-known understanding that repeating numbers is likely the most common attention-grabbing tactic. And is usually means to pay attention to what you were thinking at the time of noticing the repeating numbers or seconds before or after.

(One thing I have noticed and it seems like it’s becoming a more solidified approach: When I notice a number combination that equates to a known person’s birthday, it means I will be dealing with that person in some fashion sooner rather than later. — Just a little something to keep in mind. ?

For example, my youngest daughter’s birthday is 7-28. I’ve been seeing that number a lot lately, and it usually coincides with her having a concern that needs prompt addressing, so I should be certain to pay closer attention to her than usual. Recently, this led to her unbridled joy about a kitty she wants to adopt from a friend. So I guess we’ll be welcoming a new addition to our family soon.)

Understanding repeating numbers is a continual work-in-progress. The repeated Montana Grizzlies plates thing is new. LOL… Yet I know there’s relevance due to the sheer number of Montana Grizzles/University of Montana plates I saw this morning, all before 10:26 AM (and the athletic scholarship plate emphasized.) Hmm. Guess I’ll have to wait and see. As usual. ?

PS – HA! Just noticed when I published this? 11:11 AM. How appropriate. LOL ?

Chase Me

Aries (March 21 – April 19)
I’m an Aries Sun Sign. One aspect of Aries that comes up when reading about Aries and our connections with others, is that Aries is all about The Chase and less about what comes after.

While this may be true about many Aries — Aries is all about The Initiative — it isn’t true for me. If anything, the opposite is what holds me; I couldn’t be less interested in “The Chase”. I hate it.

It’s difficult enough to actually recognize and meet a kindred, and seek to share and explore that Connection. Only to have “The Chase” conflict? Hate that. I find it to be a complete waste of time and energy and it isn’t interesting in the slightest. Why?

Horse to Carrot
“The Chase”
Because I’m all about the true and actual Connect itself, and the Journey and Communication therein, not the chase that leads up to the Connected Journey. I’m about the carrot, not the stupid string that holds it just out of reach. It’s the carrot itself that’s satisfying, not the constant hope of getting one.

I can see how some aspects of “chasing” someone could be considered appealing,

Horse to Carrot
The Chase
but overall, I think that those who are more interested in the chase than they are the person are cheating themselves and the one they’re pursuing. Think about it: How can THIS…

possibly be more fulfilling…

than THIS?

I has carrots!
I Has Carrots!
Yeah, Baby. That’s what I’m talking about! Num-nums… Good.
To me, there’s no comparison.And I just cannot understand those who think chasing after someone is more thrilling the actual genuine reception of that someone.

For me, it’s all about The Embrace, not the chase.