Stupid

When I started backing my car out of the garage to go wash it, I must have inadvertently left my iPod on because the song that I heard from my speakers wasn’t the one playing when I’d parked my car.
— (FYI: It’s signs like this, Peeps, and our ability to recognize them, that separates us wheat from the chaff. Just sayin. ?)

Instead, the very significant sounds of “Stupid” — a Sarah McLachlan song off her album Afterglow (2003) — and one I haven’t listened to in years — came through the speakers. I went to switch it to something else, but something stayed my hand. I let it play as I drove to go wash my car, thought about what she sang as I washed my car, and I realized: How is it that this song isn’t already on my Twin Flames playlist (since corrected)?

“Stupid” lyrics:
Night lift up the shades
Let in the brilliant light in morning
Steady me now
For I am weak and starving for mercy

Sleep has left me alone
To carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong
It’s all I can do to hang on
To keep me from falling
Into old familiar shoes

How stupid could I be?
A simpleton could see
That you’re no good for me
But you’re the only one I see

Love has made me a fool
Set me on fire and watched as I floundered
Unable to speak
Except to cry out and wait for your answer

But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places, create an oasis
That dries up as soon as you’re gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you

How stupid could I be?
A simpleton could see
That you’re no good for me
But you’re the only one I see

Everything changes
Everything falls apart
I can’t stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know

How stupid could I be?
A simpleton could see
That you’re no good for me
But you’re the only one I see

How stupid could I be?
A simpleton could see
That you’re no good for me
But you’re the only one I see

I love how songs speak volumes. And this one in particular seems to address the Twin Flame issue of one Soul Mate coping with their embrace of the incredibly special and sacred connection when the other does not. This verse especially resonates for it is my life here now:
But you come around in your time
Speaking of fabulous places, create an oasis
That dries up as soon as you’re gone
You leave me here burning
In this desert without you
I’m trying to accept and adjust accordingly; the brain knows it’s necessary. Heart and soul feel like it’s easier said than done. For now, all I can do is try, and so I am… at least until I no longer have to for whatever reason. (I look forward to that release. One way or the other, I know it will occur.) But that’s exactly how it feels: Burning in this desert and trying to cope and learn to live again without him. Which you’d think wouldn’t be too difficult… except after experiencing that “oasis”, it’s so very hard to go back to life without that nourishment.

Anyway…
Glad I was Guided to this song. (Love when that happens!) I’ll ponder the reason(s) behind it likely for the rest of the day, LOL… OOH! Tarot time! Let’s try it (computer fail yesterday when trying for “Diamonds“):

Well, well, well. Interesting. ? Very acceptable reason why. And how wonderful to see such marvelousness ahead and that the negative stuff is something that I’m healing from successfully and it will be firmly in my past. Also interesting to note that the song is — in itself — part of my healing process.

We have a Powerful Connection, my Twin Flame & I; I knew that already. Looks like I’ll always respect, love, and enjoy that Connection… but it looks as though I’ll be doing so solely in Spirit, for it also looks like a recognition that comes from my Twin Flame in that “too little, too late” kind of way. How typical; it is the story of his and my life, lol… For it looks like there’s another soul mate approaching, and after what my Twin Flame showed me this morning… Looks as though I finally and fully accept it within myself that he and I won’t be happening anytime soon; if at all in this lifetime. He would have to step up pretty hardcore within himself to take my hand — and it does look like a strong chance he will do just that. Except by the time he gets around to doing so, my head’s turning to someone else. Tower & Justice here imply some strong and hardcore karmic changes taking place overall… Remember what I said about that Lightning Bolt?

*nods*
Yep.

I could go into more detail, but I won’t, cause there are many many things I won’t share with the Internet. ?
Looks like there’s one last chance for my Twin Flame to take my hand. Will he?

Looks like a “No”; he’s being too blind to see what’s around him. And again, yes, he and I are a Twin Flame “Power Couple”, yet due to his self-detrimental obstinacy (remember what I said about the Emperor & his new clothes?), still looks like a soul mate someone else may very well ride in. (Strangely enough, I’m picking up Fire sign. Figures.)

Hey.
I Tried.
But fish gotta swim and birds gotta eat.

Off to pick up my kiddos…
Til next thought, Peeps! ?